it seems that there have been so many different events going on in my life lately. none of them are more important than another. but they have all forced me to recognize the season of life that i am in.
many times i get to experience the goodness of our God when on adventures through work. this was certainly true over our recent winter retreat and again when i went to the celebration of the life of an old friend in panama. i cant really explain what it was like to go from one to the next. i cant really explain how i was able to witness God orchestrate the week and different situations. it was unbelievable to see what God did.
no really. i wouldnt have believed it if you told me beforehand. i know He promises to do more than i can ask or imagine. but i always think that is so cliche and far off and distant. but it is true. He does want to do more than i can ask or imagine. i dont think i just like to claim that because it makes me feel better when life doesnt go my way. i dont think i like saying that just because it sounds spiritual.
i actually believe it.
i dont know that i always did or i always would have really claimed that. but i have seen it. so recently. so truly and honestly. that i cant deny who God is in my life and the way that He is moving. it certainly isnt the way i had things planned. but thats probably a good thing and a very very necessary truth. i like that life is not travelling at my pace or in the ways i would design them to. i like that it is becoming more and more of an adventure with my Lover and the One that satisfies my soul.
through all these past weeks, i think more than anything i am grateful. i remember last night literally thanking God that i have protection and more than i need in my home and for the feast i was able to purchase and prepare for myself. its like the little things are becoming more huge in my life because i am being reminded of what really matters.
of how simple it all is.
i am so grateful for the way i see God aligning relationships with people that help me from going insane. i love these conversations and friendships that are popping up and being nurtured in ways that i couldnt have planned. and just when i need a friend or a meal that i didnt know i needed, the Lord provides. i am so grateful for the intentional way i am able to get to know people of all walks of life, of all ages. it is good to know that i am not alone. it is good to know that God has many soldiers in this city.
it is good to be grateful.
i am awkwardly excited about this next season of life. i dont yet know why because i have lots of school work and chaos to manage. but i am excited. there is no need to be afraid. i know in Whom i have entrusted the secret things. i want to enter the joy of my Master.
i am not afraid.
